So, on May 31, I will fly to Seattle for the Board Meeting and will be there until late Tuesday night. Then I will take an overnight flight and arrive in Haiti on Wed, June 4. Joyce and her daughter, Erin from my church (both run Daycare Centers) will join me on Thursday and we will spend the week helping to work out details at the new Apparent Project Daycare Center. Soooo very excited about this. Joyce is going to focus on administration, scheduling, etc. and Erin will be training the Nannies in infant CPR, first aid, etc. It will have been running for a month when we get there and they will observe and see how things can be tweaked and improved. We are already seeing such a great improvement in the health of the babies that are being cared for. Having healthy food and stimulating play is so good for them!
The biggest concern that we have right now is the Chikungunya virus that has hit Haiti. It is spreading rapidly through the country via mosquito. It's incubation period is 3 - 7 days so you don't know that you have it. A mosquito bites you and then goes on to the next person and gives it to them. Last week, a third of the artisans were down with it - including Shelley. It leaves you with a very itchy rash all over your body, high fever and severe joint pain. There is no inoculation for it and no cure. Just Tylenol to keep the fever down and lots of rest. The good thing is that once you have had it - you are immune to future attacks. It came into the Dominican Republic via Asia and Africa at the beginning of the year and is spreading quickly across the entire island. It came into Port au Prince about a month ago. It is not typically fatal but is most dangerous to the babies and elderly.
I tell you all of that to ask you to pray.
I'm having a hard time putting my feelings about this into words. There is always a risk of "something" when traveling into Haiti. It is a third world country after all. I've had all my immunizations - Hepatitis A, Typhoid, I've taken the malaria meds. No matter what I do - I always wind up with a touch of some kind of stomach bug when I go. But having taken "precautions" I've never worried much because my risk is low.
It's funny how you become a little more apprehensive when the risk becomes high. There is most likely a 95% chance that I will catch this virus while I am there. I'm planning on covering up as much as possible and wearing lots of repellant - mosquitoes everywhere LOVE me. They always have.
Knowing this, I began to second guess my trip. Even though it has been obvious that God has put it all together. Everything has fallen into place perfectly and I am supposed to be there. But who wants to get sick? Right?
It's only a virus. Lasts for 3 - 7 days at the most. It's not fatal. There could be long term joint pain for people over the age of 45. I'm 43 in July. Does that include me?
Wow - God is not telling me I'm going to die if I go on this trip - just risk getting a nasty virus. And yet I second guessed myself. No matter what He is asking - I need to be obedient.
I had such an overwhelming peace when I went to Haiti the very first time. And that was really walking into the unknown. I have a peace and a confidence now - I just have a little more knowledge of what is going to happen.
Maybe knowledge isn't always so good. But then again - maybe it is!
This will be my 4th trip to Haiti. It's becoming "comfortable." Comfortable in that I can get through the airport okay and I recognize places and things. Comfortable in that part of my heart feels like it's "home" when I'm there. It's what I'm supposed to be doing. Comfortable with Shelley and the artisans that are becoming more than just acquaintances. Even comfortable with the language difference. All of these are good things.
Then there are the not so good. Comfortable in that I forget about the dangers and the risks. Think that I am somehow immune to them. Comfortable in that I become self sufficient. Ouch. That's it right there - that's what hit me. That was my "aha" moment.
Self Sufficient.
I never want to travel into Haiti self sufficient. Confident in my calling - yes. Self sufficient - no! Truth is - I can do all the immunizations I want - take all the precautions I think necessary but most things are completely out of my control. Mosquitoes are not in my control.
There is nothing in Haiti that I can control. Each and every trip that I take is orchestrated by God and has a purpose. It always leads to the next thing. I have made myself available to Him. And with that comes risks. Comes dying to myself. Comes the willingness to be UN-Comfortable.
I never want it to be so comfortable that I forget to pray. That it no longer stretches my faith. I want it to ALWAYS cause me to look to Him for protection, guidance, wisdom, discernment - peace.
This has NEVER been about me and I don't want it to start now.
So thankful for God's forgiveness and grace. He knows my heart - knows I am human - knows my thoughts and my fears. He could make me comfortable all the time - but I would never grow.

It is out of our comfort zones that God does some of His best work. Because we have no one to rely on but Him. That's exactly where I want to be.
Funny it took a silly sounding virus to remind me of all of this and I haven't even come down with it yet. Maybe I won't. But - whatever Lord. Your calling on my life - the artisans and their sweet babies - are more important than rather or not I'm comfortable!
Pray for me as I travel. As always - that God's Will will be done in my life and in the lives that I connect with. Keep checking back - I'll be blogging!!!!!
Until next time.....