This story starts about 3 years ago. I had been wrestling with God for over a year about my house. God gave us our house in a series of miraculous Eph. 3:20 things that only he could do. Russ was teaching school, we were in between ministry and had returned from our trip to Oregon. Russ was putting resumes out ALL OVER the country. I dug my heals in hard. I DID. NOT. WANT. TO. MOVE. ANYWHERE!!!!!
Russ and I once had a conversation that went something like this:
Russ: I'm ready to move to Zimbabwe and live in a hut if that's what God wants us to do, I don't understand why you are fighting this.
Me: WELL WE ALL CAN'T BE AS SPIRITUAL AS YOU!!!!!!
As I storm off to take a shower. I will tell you that God convicted me in the shower for speaking to my husband that way and when I came out, I apologized and we talked further - but I still was NOT convinced that I wanted to move anywhere.
The big hang up - my house. God had given it to me - it was my first one ever. I had waited years for our own house. I had decorated, painted, remodeled and I was not about to just walk away and let someone else have it.
Boy - writing all of this brings back all the yuck. It took me an entire year. (I'm slow like that) but eventually I understood that my house - God's sweet gift to me - had become my idol. I cared far more about it than I did His calling on my life. I had become complacent. Comfortable.
So about 3 years ago, it all hit me. I got on my knees, asked for forgiveness and gave my house back to God. I let go. Such a peace and joy came over me and I can honestly say that Russ and I were on the same page again and I was ready to go to Zimbabwe and live in a hut if that's what God wanted us to do.
I laugh now, because shortly after that, Russ was called to Ocean Park out at the beaches and I literally had to put a For Rent sign in my yard. But it was okay - I was ready! And I wasn't moving to Zimbabwe - I was only going across town. To the beach no less - how cool is that?
So - I was all spiritual and ready to do whatever. I had given it to the Lord and I was good. Then my oven broke. Now I know to most of you, this seems really minor. But not me! It sent me into a tizzy! Like a call Russell - and when he stopped listening to my ramblings - call Emily kind of tizzy!
I could NOT believe my oven broke! We don't typically purchase things just to upgrade - not until they are broken and need replaced. I had been waiting for my oven to go (although there were no signs of it) so I could buy a glass top. Oh how I wanted a glass top. It was going to be the next upgrade in my kitchen. Now I was moving! I rambled on and on being so angry. Emily (having spent many years as a property manager before all her rambunctious boys) advised me NOT to put a glass top in a rental. Great. Now I had to go out and buy another cheap, ugly oven and I would never get my glass top.
I was so pouty and yucky - I couldn't even think ahead that God might give me a glass top in my new house. No - I was too busy being mad again about having to move. That's what it boiled down to. It's always a process for me. The pendulum has to swing hard in both directions for a while before I finally find the balance in the middle. It was swinging hard on this day.
Another great friend of ours, Chuck, called me that day. He was looking for Russ but got me instead. He got to listen to me whine. But - being the kind of guy that he is, he asked me what the problem was with my oven and I told him that the heating element had burned up and broke in half. He told me that was an easy fix and that I could easily get a replacement part.
Wow! What a concept. I wouldn't have to buy a new one for strangers moving into my house. I got on the phone and investigated. I drug the kids all over town as we searched for the part. Russ was working and so was my brother so Jarod and I worked together and I replaced it myself! I was so happy! (there goes that pendulum swing again!)
For the past 3 years, my oven has worked just fine and I have been very content. Obviously we did not move at all. The Lord never moved us to the beach and now that we are serving a church in our community, we understand why. I now know in my heart that the Lord wanted my willingness to move. My willingness to do what ever He called me to do - and to let go of all the STUFF! It's been a long, up and down process full of broken heating elements and I even believe my trip to Haiti had a lot to do with that as well. Seeing employed Haitians being content with so much less will easily put life into perspective. Amazing the things God uses to bring us closer to him.
Okay - so the icing on the cake in all of this came about this weekend. God just shakes his head at crazy me, I am sure. I have fought and kicked and screamed and finally complied and have become content. I'm learning that it's in that contentment that He is able to REALLY bless.
My brother, Marc, is a painter, home repair, renovation kind of guy. Property Services. He had a client hire him recently to paint and do some minor repairs on a condo that they had just purchased. They were closing on it at the end of March and they decided to gut the appliances. Since they just get taken away by Lowe's or Home Depot - they offered them to Marc. Marc and Sam replaced all of their appliances a few years back and knowing I had had an issue with my oven, he called me.

Not only was it a Glass Top Oven, but it was a microwave that gets mounted over the oven (hello --- more counter space!) AND a dishwasher! The seal on ours was going bad and my microwave had just died.
AAAAAAHHHHHHHH! Could you just squeal!!????? Marc came over on Saturday and installed all of them for me. The dates on them are from 2006 - the year we moved into our house. Everything is Whirlpool - just like the fridge we bought in 2006 and it all matches!
Isn't God good? The amazing thing is - He had this planned all along. He desires to bless us and take care of us even with things like appliances.
He doesn't care about my house - where I live - what I live in. He cares about my heart. He wants my willingness to go wherever and do whatever. To do those things that He has made me to do. When we seek Him first - all the other things will be added. They are bonuses. He gives them to us because He loves us - we are His children. He makes sure our needs are met - "exceedingly abundantly above all that we can ask or imagine." We just have to be patient and TRUST.
Isn't it pretty????
I think I need to go cook something......
Until next time.......