Won't You Pray With Me?

Russ and Jarod are at Scout Camp in West Central Georgia this week.  They have had some rain but are doing well and having a lot of fun.  Jarod is working on several Merritt Badges, including swimming, something about space (he's launching rockets tomorrow) and history.  Totally in his element.  They are going on a "Field Trip" tomorrow to the Atlanta Race Way.  They are excited!  I'm sure I will blog more about it when Russ comes home with photos, etc.


Anne and I took off and came to Sasha's for some much needed "girl time."  The weather has been great and we are enjoying long conversations by the pool.  Tomorrow will be more fun and sun and maybe even some shopping.  Always a must with Sasha.

I have to say I am enjoying the down time.  We have had many exciting things happening to us since my trip to Haiti in February.  AP sales and speaking engagements are non-stop (I have another one this Saturday!)  We've transitioned in ministry to a new church and we have ended another successful school year. All this while keeping up with my calligraphy orders.  All we have left is VBS next week and Anne's dance recital next weekend and things should calm down a bit for the summer. 

I am already making some plans for the future - but no matter what I do, I have Haiti on my brain.  I know I talk about it regularly and I'm selling the jewelry constantly - but it's more than that.  God did such an incredible work in my life in that place and I feel as though I have left part of my heart there.   I have this strong desire to return and I'm trying to figure out if it is because I am supposed to return because God has even more for me OR if I'm just obsessed because I'm totally in love with AP, Shelley, Corrigan, their family, the artisans and all they are doing there.  (Not in a creepy, stalker kind of way mind you - but the I want to go and help and visit and be a part and come back with even more stories, kind of way.)

What I'm trying to decide is - Is this was I am SUPPOSED to do - or what I WANT to do?  Or - does it even matter?  On my last trip - I wanted to go but I also knew I was supposed to go.  I had a "God Appointment" that week.  This time I want to go - but I don't know if I'm supposed to go.  Does that make sense????  Does it have to be so black and white? 

Can I just go because I want to?  After all - it is God who brought this to me and the passion I have for it all comes directly from Him.  So maybe it is one in the same.  Maybe going down there on a regular basis is what I'm supposed to do now.  God does give us the desires of our hearts.  I'm over thinking this, aren't I?????? 

I do that.  It drives my husband crazy.  He's not here right now - can you tell?  So you guys get to hear all the ramblings that are going on in my head.  Scary, huh???

Don't you feel special???

One thing I DO KNOW - I am ready to take another leap of faith - if that is what God requires of me.  I'm ready to dive deeper, learn more.

I have found that there is NO better place then doing exactly what He wants me to do and being exactly who He has made me to be.  Right now, for me, this includes Apparent Project.

Obedience always brings freedom. 

And that kind of freedom can make a huge splash in the world.

The ripples go on and on and on and effect so many more than just myself.

I am praying about this - and therapeutically typing it all out -  'cause that's what I do.


Won't you pray with me?